this morning, i woke up to come to school...i really wonder why do i have to come school so early while others are still sleeping and enjoying their term breaks??? when people are enjoying their days, here i am in school having to go through this kind of toture every single day...like this my life is meaningless...i can't find time to get enough rest at home...i'll need to do my own school projects too...i guess going to school for internship is a toture for me...i really find it meaningless on coming to school...i simply thinks that it should end here!!! i really have enough of it!!! could someone just stop this thing for me??? i'm really impress how i managed to live past those few months i had...it's really terrible thinking about it...

i have this feeling that i kind of mess up my own life...i hate myself...everything is in a mess for me...the way i worked is totally different now...i really don't how and what should i do??? furthermore, i don't have time to waste now...graduating next year makes me think alot like what should i do after graduation...haiz...hope i can get out of the mess soon...

**anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!!!**